Dean
turned and grabbed the bottle, then stared at the second one in Sam's
hand. He looked up into Sam's face and could tell little bro expected
him to put up a stink. Instead, he touched his bottle to Sam's and just
said, "Drink it slow. I don't want to haul your drunk ass inside."
Sam
grinned and sat down on the top step by Dean's feet. "It sucks here,
Dean," he took a sip of beer, "it really sucks." Wiping his mouth he
looked out over the lake. "How long did Dad say we had to be here?"
Shaking
his head, Dean answered. "Beats the hell outta me. Tomorrow will be too
late." He was about to go out of his mind with boredom. Knocking back
some
of the beer, he swatted a mosquito and cursed. "This has got to be the
worst place we've been, and we've been in plenty of dumps. Hope he gets
done with whatever soon." Yeah, but when had he ever gotten back in less
than a week? "If it weren't so hot that the cards would stick to my
fingers, I'd teach you to play poker. And don't get started with you
already know how... you gotta work on that poker face."
Sam
shrugged and took another sip of beer. “So, Dean,” he cleared his
throat, “there was this girl, you know, back in Camden.” He picked at
the label on the beer bottle feeling his cheeks start to burn; scratched
his nose then pushed his hair out of his eyes. “You know what? Never
mind. Let's play poker - we're gonna go nuts if we sit here doing
nothin'."
Studying
Sam's profile, Dean started to smile. "Nah, let's not play poker. How
about you tell me 'bout her. This girl in Camden." The silence didn't
surprise Dean. "Did she have nice... you know," he motioned with his
hands as he asked
whether she had a nice rack. That was sure to get Sam tripping over his tongue and get him talking.
“Jesus,
Dean!” Sam put his beer down on the step beside him, thinking,
remembering. “She did… I mean, I didn’t,” he closed his eyes for a
moment, “yeah.” He grinned and looked at Dean out of the corner of his
eye. “She was really pretty though, you know? Long black hair, real
tiny,” he looked up at Dean, “she would have fit right under my arm.” He
lifted his arm up almost unconsciously as if he could see her there.
“Smelled really good too,” he muttered almost under his breath. He let
out a big sigh and picked up the beer bottle again, taking a long drink.

"You
sweet on a girl, Sammy?" He teased, but a sadness swept through him. He
knew Sam had a tendency to take things to heart, and a need to make
long term friends. When he said he liked a girl, it probably meant a big
time crush. How often would he get to explore something like that for
more than a blink of an eye? That was one of the reasons Dean had
learned to move so quickly on a girl. If he did the old dating before
kissing thing, he'd never get laid. "Should'a told me." Yeah, he'd have
given his brother some tips... after he gave him some shit of course.
Sam
shrugged again. “I guess. Doesn’t matter, I never got to … well, I was
gonna … you know kiss her.” He puffed out his cheeks and let out a long
breath. “I didn’t really know… well, I was going to try.” Cringing, he
waited for the abuse to start.
"Oh yeah?" Again with the silence. "What happened," Dean asked, not a hint of mockery in his voice.
"Nothin'."
Sam chuckled softly, the smile fading quickly from his face.
"Seriously, nothing. I didn't know where to start." He looked cautiously
at Dean, trying to gage the mood he was in. "I didn't know what to do,
Dean. How to start, like..." he turned to face his older brother,
feeling a bit more confident, "how do you let a girl know that you like
her... that you want to kiss her?"

The
wise cracks about being irresistible and not having that problem died
on his lips the instant his brother's gaze met his. "I don't know that
there's a magic formula. I mean... it's trial and error. You just
gotta," he sniffed, "you know, think there's nothing to lose. What's the
worst that can happen? She says no, or maybe you get slapped." Okay, a
crack slipped out, but it wasn't a bad one and it was the truth. "Some
girls... you just know they're not gonna be prudes. Others... ah, let's
go inside and play poker," he said, changing his mind.
"No!
what?" For a minute there Sam though his brother was actually going to
help him instead of just brushing him off. "Come on, Dean, I don't have
anyone else to talk to!" It came out louder than Sam intended but it was
true. The way they moved around Sam was lucky if he could even keep
people's names straight. He was frustrated and pissed off. "I used to
think I would die a virgin - now I think I'm going to die without ever
even kissing someone." Sam slammed the beer bottle down on the top step
splashing it up his arm.
"That's
nuts... Sam." Dean got up and joined him on the stair, stretching his
legs out and looking over at him. "You are not gonna die... you know I
won't let you," he said, pointing at him with his bottle before he took a
drink. Damn, he could get emo over the smallest things. "I was just
gonna say, you can sometimes tell from the way they hold their head. You
know, kinda tilted to the side, hair partly in their eyes... means the
chick's flirting with you." He
demonstrated
the pose. "And ... I dunno, pupils get dark... kinda big... and if they
sway toward you, even little," he moved a few inches toward Sam, "and
if they're looking either in your eyes or at your mouth... it's in the
bag." He took another swig, leaned his head back and swallowed, then
looked back at Sam. "And if their lips part... real slow like this...
then it's guaranteed."
As Dean's lips parted Sam felt a
little jolt, it brought back memories of all those times he had watched
Dean while he made out with some girl. He knew what Dean was talking
about, well, some of it. He'd seen the way the girls looked at his older
brother - like they wanted something from him. His eyes jumped down to
Dean's mouth, his full bottom lip, then back to his brother's eyes. He
looked up at Dean from behind his floppy bangs. "Then ... what do you do
first?" he almost whispered.
"Yeah, kinda
like that," Dean agreed, seeing Sam emulate the girls and nodding. "You
know what I do next, not like you haven't seen it often enough," he
grinned. He didn't mind that Sam shadowed him, he liked it.
Sam's
eyes widened and he leaned back a little. "I was just .." he felt
around behind him blindly for his beer, grabbed it and finished the rest
of the bottle, gulping it down. He took a deep shuddering breath. "I
was trying to see how it ... worked." He could feel a blush creeping up
his neck and warmth growing in his belly. Looking at Dean from under
long dark lashes he gave him a weak grin. "I kinda liked it." Okay, that
beer was going straight to his head.
"Hmmm? You got
that far with her? And liked it?" He noticed that Sam had finished his
drink, no wonder he wasn't making a hundred percent sense here. But hey,
that meant he might share things he otherwise wouldn't. "So ... arm go
around her? You know, when you were liking it." Dean bet that was code
for getting a stiffy.
Sam
looked confused for a few seconds, "Me? Did I like.... oh...." crap
"That's not what I meant. I liked .. You know - watching you." Suddenly
feeling like he couldn't really breathe he tugged on the neck of his
t-shirt. "I mean," he ran his hand down his face, "I liked watching you
kiss girls." He moved as if to get up, "I should probably go ... to bed
or something." Why couldn't he stop talking?
"Oh...
that." He tried not to laugh at Sam's worried expression. "I get off on
porn, you get off on soft porn," he shrugged, trying to be as casual as
he could about it. "Here's the thing... it's a hundred times better when
you're getting it, than watching," he pointed at Sam. "You know it's
true. So next time you see someone you like, get them to that point with
the swaying... don't hesitate. Go for it." He put his hand on Sam's
back, patting him. "You've got it in you, you're a Winchester."
"Yeah,
I guess." He leaned back into Dean's touch, liking the feel of his
broad hand. Dean's lips looked really soft, no wonder there was always a
girl. Sam leaned a little closer, staring at the drop of beer on the
corner of his brother's mouth. Go for it Darting forward he crushed his
mouth against the corner of Dean's, pulled away and wiped his mouth with
the back of his hand.
Everything happened at once. The
sudden press of firm warm lips against his, a familiar burning...
aching sensation, and the realization he'd been kissed. Sam had kissed
him. He'd.... His heart sort of stuttered, and Dean told himself it was
from shock. Then he tried to think about how many beers he'd had...
three, just three, not so many that he would have imagined it.
Instinctively, he licked his lips... and holy crap, he tasted Sam there,
and no way... no way was he thinking of leaning in and...

He
cleared his throat. "Right, just like that. Only with your arms around
her," he said, finally figuring out he was an idiot. Sam had been trying
the technique out on him. Course if the kid hadn't had that beer, he
wouldn't have. And sure, he probably should be slugging him, or kicking
his ass... but he found he couldn't get himself worked up enough to do
that. "Just like that," he said more softly, this time leaning back on
his elbows braced on the stairs and looking up at the moon. Yeah... he
really needed to find Sammy a girl. Both of them...
Sucking
on his bottom lip Sam sat very still, watching his brother. That had
felt really good, and Dean tasted like Sam thought he would; beer, salt
and, well, Dean. He shifted down a step, scooted a little closer and
reached out shyly, sliding his hand over Dean's stomach, curling his
hand over his brother's hip. "Kind of like this?" he asked tugging Dean a
little closer.
Dean's
stomach clenched under his brother's touch. Hell, other parts of him
that shouldn't be standing at attention seemed to suddenly come alive.
He sucked in his breath, trying to explain this to himself. Telling
himself it was because they were bored to death, with no end in sight,
and he was not reacting to his brother specifically, it was just a
reaction to a touch... he was so hard up, any touch would do. His gaze
met and clashed with Sam's and suddenly he wasn't so sure.
Swallowing
hard, he reminded himself he was the older brother. It was his job to
take care of Sam. If Sam was so drunk he wanted a demo, he shouldn't
take him up on it... cause that would be really bad. Real bad. "Just
like that..." his heart slammed into his chest. Dean took his brother's
hand off his hip and sat up, trying to ignore the scorching heat left by
Sam's hand print. "Let's get you to bed, Sammy."
Sam
bit down hard on his bottom lip, tasting blood, sliding away from Dean
quickly. He straightened his back, swaying a little, feeling a little
dizzy. "I'm ... sorry, Dean. You mad?" He pressed his fingers to his
bottom lip and then grimaced when they came away red. "I bit my lip."
"Mad...
no." Maybe he was drunk... he had to be, cause why else did he find
himself cupping Sam's chin, why was he wiping his lip with the pad of
his thumb, and why the hell was he swaying toward Sam, wanting a proper
taste? Jerking his face slightly so his lips ended up sliding along
Sam's cheek, and moving over his ear instead of his original target, he
whispered. "No one could resist your moves, Sammy, I'm pretty sure about
that." He barely recognized his own voice and refused to analyze why
he'd said 'no one' instead of 'no girl.' Afraid of these strange
sensations sweeping through his system, Dean stood up and put his hand
out. "Time to turn in."

Sam
felt like his knees were going to buckle when he felt Dean’s breath on
his ear. Felt so good. Glancing down at Dean’s hand, he reached out and
slid his fingers slowly over his brother’s rough palm, then grabbed on
and pulled himself up. Stumbling, he tripped up the step in front of him
and fell against Dean’s Chest. “I think I’m a bit drunk, Dean.” He
grinned at his brother, grabbing onto the waistband of his jeans to hold
himself up. Dean smelled so good. Sam turned his face into Dean's neck,
breathing deeply.

As
Sam's body collided into his, as it felt almost like Sam was about to
pull his pants down, Dean barely bit back a moan. Fuck... he knew
better, knew he shouldn't be feeling like this... no matter how many
drinks he'd had, Goddamit. Sam was a guy... and not just any guy, he was
his little brother. Emphasis on 'little'... you listening down there?
Didn't matter what he thought, his blood was definitely surging to his
cock, and Sam wasn't helping any... the way he was practically nuzzling
him.
"I know you are. Let's get you inside." He tried
to keep his voice normal, putting his arm around Sam, his palm sliding
down his side to his waist, over tight muscles that had developed
overnight it seemed. "Come on..." Yeah, he was talking to himself as
much as to his brother. He got him up the stairs, and they staggered a
little. Each time Sam jostled against him, Dean gritted his teeth,
fighting his feelings. "Keep that up and I'm picking you up, Goddamit,"
he finally snapped.
“You’re
bossy.” Sam smiled and pressed his lips against Dean’s neck, lingering.
There were so many feelings rushing through him, and it all felt so
good. Maybe it wasn’t right, wasn’t how it was supposed to be, but
Dean’s hands felt really good on him. No one loved him like Dean… it
just made sense. He tucked his hand into Dean’s back pocket curling and
uncurling his fingers against his brother's firm ass. He tried to walk
straighter to please Dean.

"You
bet I am." Dean's voice went from low to high pitched. He had to have
imagined that kiss... had to, but Sam's hand in his pocket... no matter
how hard he tried to unimagine it, it was still there... pressing into
his ass, making him wonder what would happen if he pulled Sam close,
held him the same way. No, no, no... This was just making him wish he
was drunk. Then he'd have an excuse. Maybe.
"Sam,
come on," he said more sharply, practically dragging his brother inside
to the bedroom and shoving him down onto the bed. The distance between
them allowed him to breathe again. "Get... get undressed. I'm gonna lock
up," he said a bit tightly, for the first time in his life shying away
from the sight of Sam in boxers. What the hell had gotten into him?
Turning, he left the room and went to secure the house.
For
a few minutes, Sam just stared at the ceiling. His fingers drifted to
his lips, the taste of Dean’s skin still there. Shit. Dean was going to
kick his ass in the morning. Pushing himself up off the bed he kicked
off his boots and pulled his socks off, almost falling off the bed while
he struggled out of his jeans. He palmed the slight bulge in the front
of his boxers, feeling his cheeks redden again. What the hell are you
doing to yourself Sam? He snorted and grabbed the hem of his shirt.
After a brief wrestling match, he threw the shirt on the floor and slid
under the sheet.
Taking
more time than he needed, Dean drained the rest of his beer, left the
bottle on the kitchen table and headed back to the room. A part of him
wanted to hit the bottle, reach for something stronger than beer.
Another part of him worried about consequences... if he wasn't thinking
straight now, what might he do if he had some whiskey inside him?
Generally
noting the lump under the sheets that told him Sam was in bed, he kept
his eyes off Sam. In the morning, this would all clear up and yeah...
he'd find them stuff to do, just to keep the hormones from making him do
or allow something they'd regret. Dad, it's all your fault I kissed
Sammy cause you left us in fucking Merliville... yeah... not gonna cut
it.
He
undid his belt buckle, and unzipped. Pushing his jeans down his hips,
he practically kicked them off since he was barefooted. Glancing at the
ceiling fan, he wished it was circulating something other than hot air.
The heat had to be getting to his brain too... yeah that was it.
Crossing the room, he shut the light and got into his bed, leaving the
sheets off. Hands behind his head, he watched the fan turned. "Night
Sam."
Sam watched Dean get undressed through squinted
eyes, his brother moved so easily; Sam still felt like he was all arms
and legs. The light turned off, he heard Dean’s bed creak and his
goodnight. Sam ran through the evening in his mind, listening to Dean’s
breathing from across the room. He couldn’t stop thinking about the way
Dean’s mouth had felt when he had kissed him, it was softer than he
thought it would be, his brother’s lips smoother, warmer. Sam shifted in
bed, leaned up and held his breath to listen. Dean’s breathing was deep
and even, he was sleeping.
He
sat up, slid out of his bed and padded quietly over to Dean’s bed. Sam
just stood there for a while, listening to Dean’s breath, watching the
rise and fall of his chest; then he sat down as gently as he could on
the side of Dean’s bed.
Dean didn’t move, his breathing
still even and calm; Sam leaned down slowly and pressed his slightly
parted lips against Dean’s. He waited, and when Dean didn’t stir, he
leaned in again, drawing Dean’s bottom lip into his mouth
ever-so-gently.
"Mmmn..." Dean started to complain as
something disturbed his sleep, but before he came awake, the sensation
of soft lips against his, sucking on him, turned the complaint into a
moan of pleasure. Good... good, but he wanted more. Parting his lips, he
dipped his tongue
slightly
inside, finding the heat of that silky mouth pressing so damned sweetly
against his. He moved his hand, cupping the side of his dream date's
face and kissing just a little harder, like he was almost afraid that if
he was too aggressive, his date would bolt.
A moan
built somewhere in Sam’s chest when he felt Dean’s tongue slide into his
mouth, so slick and smooth, surprised he gasped into his brother’s
mouth then just let the pleasure wash over him. Letting his weight
settle cautiously against Dean’s chest Sam turned into his brother’s
hand, so rough on his cheek. He let his tongue slip out of his mouth,
licking along the velvety smooth bottom lip he’s been staring at all
night. Don’t wake up, don’t wake up, don’t wake up. He felt like he
couldn't catch his breath, shifted closer so he could press up against
Dean's thigh, Holy shit. His heart was thundering so loud in his chest
he was sure Dean would hear it.

The
instant Dean sensed weight pressing into him, he closed his other arm
around his date, running his hand up and down, then resting it on is
date's ass. As their tongues tangled, he slowly became aware of
something hard pressing into his thigh. Other things shifted into place
too. There wasn't much softness to the body he was groping, it was all
tight muscle... it belonged to a male. Goddamn Sammy for doing this to
him, making him dream of a guy. And Goddamn himself for not forcing
himself awake, and deciding to enjoy it.
Slanting
his mouth, he deepened the kiss, caressing the roof of the guy's
mouth... not just any guy, he tasted like Sam, tasted good like him,
felt like how he thought Sam might feel. He tangled their tongues
together and then started a thorough exploration, mapping every corner
of his mouth, his breaths growing slightly ragged.
Felt
so good. Sam didn’t know what to do with his hands, with his legs, his
hips rolled forward into Dean’s leg- which kinda scared him and kinda
felt really good, too good. He was just learning though. Right?. Just
learning. Panting into Dean’s mouth Sam’s arm snaked over Dean’s hip,
his fingers pressing into the hot flesh above Dean’s shorts. Dean's
tongue felt so good in his mouth, he couldn’t stop himself from sucking
on it, trying to pull it further inside his mouth.
"Yeah
baby," Dean encouraged, molding the boy's body to his, deciding he
needed more. Without breaking the kiss, he cupped the guy's ass, fingers
digging into partially clothed flesh as he started to roll them over,
needing to be on top, to control the kiss and gain the pressure he was
starting to need to ease the throbbing ache between his legs.
Sam
groaned and twisted out from under Dean sliding off the bed and
thudding onto the floor. His heart was beating so fast it felt like it
was in his throat. Jesus Dean that was too good, too much, and totally
not about learning anything anymore. Kissing your brother shouldn’t feel
like that, shouldn’t feel like it’s setting you on fire somewhere deep
inside your stomach. Sam sat there trying to calm himself down.
Reaching
blindly out to grab his would-be lover, Dean complained loudly.
"C'mere... need you. Don't be like that." His body was on fire, and he
just fucking wasn't used to being left high and dry. "Whatever I said...
didn't mean it."
Sam’s head fell back against the bed
as his breathing slowed. He wondered who Dean was dreaming about,
knowing it wasn’t him. He sighed and kneeled up to look at Dean’s face,
watching his furrowed brow, reaching out he ran his finger along Dean’s
lips, knowing he’d never get a chance to do it again.
Dean
chased that finger, managing to suck part of it into his mouth and
smiling triumphantly as his hand shot out and unerringly gripped the
boy's wrist. "Stop driving me crazy... Sammy."
Sam
jumped jerking back against Dean’s strong grip. What the hell? “D D
Dean?” He tried to tug his hand away, to no avail. “Dean, I’m sorry,
I….” he looked down, out of words.
The
sudden movement combined with Sam's voice brought Dean awake. He
jackknifed to a sitting position, "what... what happened?" Then found he
had grabbed Sam's wrist, and that his brother was standing next to his
bed. He could smell Sam... could smell his scent on himself, could taste
him. He remembered the kissing on the stairs the... oh crap. Releasing
Sam, he cocked his head. "Did I.... say anything?" Please God... don't
let me have said anything about the dream... but he knew he must have,
or why else had Sam awakened and come to investigate?
Sam’s
mouth dropped open, then closed, then opened again as he tried to
figure out what to say. He licked his lips, “S’okay Dean, go back to
sleep,” his voice was husky, deep, “I’m sorry I … woke you.” Why did he
feel so crappy? Why did his heart jump when Dean had said his name? Just
the idea of Dean knowing it had been him… Sam sighed and tugged his arm
free, going back to his bed, climbing in and rolling away from Dean.
"Night, Dean." He pressed his face into his pillow.

"Sam?"
The silence made him think maybe he'd imagined Sam had been right
there. Nah, he knew he had been, but what had he heard, and why was he
apologizing? Maybe he didn't wanna know. Telling himself that, he
dropped back down on the pillow, rolling to his side and watching Sam.
Only when he realized he was checking out the lean lines of his body
visible in the semi dark room, did he roll over on his stomach, barely
holding back a groan. Tomorrow, he was gonna tell his dad to get his ass
back here. Okay, maybe not in those exact terms but...
* * *
When
Sam's eyes cracked open in the morning he had a few moments to savor
the deliciously cool morning air before everything came flooding back to
him. The thoughts seeped back into his consciousness in no apparent
order; the taste of beer on his lips, firm muscles under his hand,
low-voiced words of advice from his brother, kissing, oh god kissing,
Dean’s hands digging into the muscles of his ass. He sat bolt upright in
bed eyes darting across the room to Dean’s sleeping form.
In
slumber, Dean’s face was serene – he never seemed to look like that
during the day. Sam’s eyes traced the smooth curve of Dean’s spine
ending in the slight twist of his hips….. he scrambled out of bed. What
the hell was wrong with him? There was no beer to blame now. Snatching
his jeans off the floor he hopped around quietly pulling them on,
focused on getting away from Dean for a while. He stopped briefly to
scrawl
one word on a scrap of paper on the bedside table, ‘swimming’. As he
turned to leave his hazel eyes trailed once more over Dean’s face – then
he darted out of the room.
It was a short walk to the
lake, the breeze was nice as it ruffled his shaggy hair and the grass
felt warm on his bare feet. He really needed a haircut. The water was
still, blue, clear and Sam shucked off his jeans and waded in, gritting
his teeth against the cold. Wearily, he looked down at his hands,
splashing some water onto his face, he had to make sure everything was
okay with Dean. He had no one else, pathetic as that seemed. He dove
into the water and swam.